"if you have come to help me, you are wasting your time... but if you have come because your liberation is bound up in mine, let us work together" - lila watson
someone asked me how i've seen God moving in my life this past year...
and it took me a really long time to answer...
in the end i rambled... said something about 'holding on'
and then talked about honesty.
"when we speak the truth, we free those around us to be honest"
but in the end, i think that's so much the place that i'm in -- trying to be honest.
with myself and others.
and i'm still only scratching the surface...
trying to 'unload my backpack' - be honest with the burdens and doubts i'm carrying.
"forget your perfect offering, there is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in" - leonard cohen.
but its been encouraging to see people on their journeys...
to see the joy and the struggles.
to question my own place.
and to maybe process some of the questions....
thanks for being encouragement and inspiration to me.
the other day i was embarrassed in front of someone -- which happens maaaybe like once a year if that for me 'cause i'm relatively un-embarrassable -- so it's extra embarrassing then if it's enough to make me feel unenjoyably awkward -- but i thought afterwards "maybe that person felt embarrassed in front of me before" -- and i felt okay with having to be embarrassed, because i hoped it made them feel okay about both of us being kinda human/lame like that. i like your words here about honesty and getting close to those cracks in our facades to see the Truth coming through them. and i'm glad i got to see a couple of the things you unpacked outta your backpack, it was really good just having a nice real conversation with you, ruthi-o :)
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